I walk a weird line. It’s a line between secret pride and acute feelings of inadequacy. A line between reveling in the accolades of others and succumbing to the voices inside of me that hiss about my unworthiness, my unlovability, and my hopeless pursuit of wholeness. It’s a line that feels like the edge of [...]
Tag Archives: grace
holding everything together
Today, I have been wondering about God’s will for me. His plan for today and tomorrow and the rest of my time on this earth. It isn’t a new curiosity or question, but every season of life brings new context and new angles to consider. I’m being reminded of how impatient I can be. For [...]
H is for Healing (Counting My Blessings 8/26)
There have been a few times in my life when I have had an illness that seemed to drag on and on and on. Not something serious or drastically life-altering, just run-of-the-mill sicknesses that usually go their course in a few days. But, for whatever reason, they hung on. And became draining. And exhausting. And [...]
G is for Grace (Counting My Blessings 7/26)
I deserve disapproval. It’s easy for me to try and justify my misguided actions, to explain away my curt or hurtful words, to rationalize the times I’ve chosen the less-than-holy option. The reality is, though, that I don’t deserve another chance or an understanding smile. I deserve disapproval. Ultimately, I deserve death. I’m so grateful [...]
Rescue
I’m struck tonight by how little I am able to control the stuff of life. I try and pretend that I have some measure of strength or courage…something that I bring to the table. I’m feeling now, though, that pretty much the only thing I can control is my response. How I react. Whether in [...]
Follow Me? Okay.
