This morning, a friend mentioned to me that she eats ice cream sandwiches in the shower to cheer herself up. It made me thing of Sisyphus. It also made me think of the ways that I find myself doing the same thing over and over again, treading the same paths and patterns…the pursuits that seem [...]
goals
Last year, when the explosion of my personal life was in full effect, one of the things that kept me sane was being able to jump on my bike and head off in some random direction. Experiencing the road under my wheels as my heart pumped and my legs whirred made me feel purposeful and [...]
birth
One Word. One idea…one concept…one touchstone. For the whole year. It’s an idea that I first stumbled across while reading my favorite blog. It interested me, but didn’t grab me enough to personally do anything about it. Then, backstage at a play I was part of this past Christmas season, a fellow cast member handed [...]
My grace is sufficient
I walk a weird line. It’s a line between secret pride and acute feelings of inadequacy. A line between reveling in the accolades of others and succumbing to the voices inside of me that hiss about my unworthiness, my unlovability, and my hopeless pursuit of wholeness. It’s a line that feels like the edge of [...]
be near…
The road to wholeness appears to have many starts and stops. And here I am, again, feeling broken. Not shattered, but not seamless either. Psalm 34:18 is what I need to hear tonight. Again and again. Whispered reminders that I am not alone…that God is here with me. Binding up my heart and healing me [...]
holding everything together
Today, I have been wondering about God’s will for me. His plan for today and tomorrow and the rest of my time on this earth. It isn’t a new curiosity or question, but every season of life brings new context and new angles to consider. I’m being reminded of how impatient I can be. For [...]
looking back…looking forward
Tonight, I have been looking back through my posts. Like photos in an album, each marking a specific moment or season, the blog posts transport me back to the frame of mind and the condition of heart that I was experiencing as I typed them out word by word. They are digital time capsules, snapshots [...]
I is for Isaac (Counting My Blessings 9/26)
There was a moment when I knew my life had changed. When the old things were passing away and something new had begun. When the relative quiet of my world was filled with the cries and breaths of a new creation. When my son, Isaac, entered the world…entered my arms…entered my heart. Today, as I [...]
never alone
There is the plan you start out with. Then, there is the plan that comes about through living and monitoring and adjusting. In the middle of all of it, I am seeing with great clarity, there is a God who holds us and sustains us and reminds us that we are never alone. Today, I [...]
morning dawns
“…where morning dawns and evening fades you call forth songs of joy.” – Psalm 65:8b Anyone who reads what I write here must surely sense that my life is full of ups and downs. Correction: my life is full of hairpin turns of emotion that often make little sense. It seems like every day [...]
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